Still Living

I'm alive. I just don't have anything to say.

Hm... Well... Lets see what I can remember.
We are going to a different church.
Um... Goodness. I can't think of anything else.

I don't think I said anything.
But my dog, Ginger, died a while ago.

We recently got a new dog. Max. He's a cool dog.
He doesn't seem to be getting along with the cats well.
He is also scared of certain sounds.
Like a dog squeaky toy, or pressing the steam button on the Iron.
Or even just hissing at him. Oh, and bubble wrap.
He runs away and hides somewhere.
Ah, but little details, harmless flaws and fears;
make something or someone just so much more - interesting. x3

Well... I can't seem to think up much else to say.
-Beck

Horrid Headache

I took something for this headache, but I guess it wasn't strong enough.
Didn't know it'd get this bad.


Every time I make a space, hit the enter, blogger acts weird. D;
It won't show me it made a space...

But anyway. Um. I got a Venus Flytrap today. What fun!
I find them to be very cute and interesting things.
Cute? Don't tell me it doesn't look cute! xD

Ah well... My drawing seems to be getting better.
My place isn't in realistic art. As one of my siblings says,
I draw things/items better then people/humans.
Or so it would seem, I guess.
I'm not really all that great at drawing cups, lights, and whatnot.
But -- places, trees, flowers aren't so bad.
Anyway! I kind of quit on drawing human figures.
But I just now drew a pirate with an eye-patch,
and it turned out pretty good. Heh...

Not much else to say really. Besides, 'I hope this headache would leave quickly.'
-Beck

Deja Vu Theory

Deja Vu. French. It means, 'Already Considering'/already seen'.

1 a : the illusion of remembering scenes and events when experienced for the first time.
b : a feeling that one has seen or heard something before.
2 : something overly or unpleasantly familiar.

I was talking to a sibling a week ago about it. And it occurred to me.

Forgotten Dreams.
A remembrance of a dream.

It is said that people dream everytime they sleep. But often don't remember.
I have heard: Some people have dreams, that they remember,
that tells them a bit of what is going to happen.
Such as a look at what will happen them.

A person may dream a bit of what is going to happen to them, but forget.
But when that forgotten dream is fulfilled; you get a quick remembrance of the dream.
Giving you a feeling that it has happened before.

In short: A future telling dream is forgotten, when that future happens,
you feel it happen before because you have dreamt the very thing,
there for the result could possibling be; Deja vu.

I haven't really read up all that much of it and other theories.
And this is my random thought.

-Beck

Flat Soft Drink

Why 'Flat Soft Drink'? Because I have a flat can of coke next to me.
That's why. I've recently noticed that I don't like 'newly opened' can soda.
It's way too loud and bubbly. I guess I just prefer a different feeling.
Now I don't like completely flat soda, but I don't mind drinking it.
[But not like it's been sitting somewhere for a long long time. Eh...]
Most preferred soda? Bottled or fountain.
If in a can, I tend to like it better after an hour. xDD

Yes, very odd. But it's a thought that has been roaming, but lacks importance.
And for some awkward reason I wrote of it . . .
I guess I didn't find much else to say.

That reminds me; I have also recently discovered I like accents.
Pretty much every kind [But maybe not Dutch].
French, Australian; mainly any that is said in a voice I am fond of.
Not too scratchy or high pitched.
One of my siblings had been playing a video game behind me before,and finished the game; then decided to play again and see what it sounded like in French.
But yes, it was so beautiful.
I also had a dream in the past about; a small Victorian house in Britain, New Year's, a bad past year, old people, young people,a guy with an Australian accent. <33

Anyway...
-Beck

Two Zero Zero Six

I've been sitting here for about 10 minutes trying to figure out what to say.
So I'll just start it off like this.

Merry late Christmas and Happy late New Years.
I got some nice stuff for Christmas.
Mainly a Electric TypeWriter from 'Santa' and a Relient K hoody from my sister.

Aside from that, not much has happened. Or so that is what I remember.
I went with the Awana group to go see Narnia, at the theater.
It was a pretty good movie, but they took a lot of advantages of the book.

What was interesting is that Peter, Susan, Edmund and Lucy kind of looked like real siblings. But they aren't, as far as I know.

Though; Anna Popplewell, the girl who played Susan, has a younger brother and sister in acting. The sister Lulu was in some movie I've never seen, and the brother Freddie played 'Michael Darling' in the movie, 'Peter Pan'.

You can kind of see the resemblance. But anyway...

Not much else I guess. I'll try and keep this updated. :3

-Beck

Merry Soon Christmas

It'll be Christmas soon, about five more days.
I've been a little off with my mood lately, not very excited,
and don't feel very much like being surprised.
But I suspect it is because it'll be a Christmas I'm not use to.
Since we won't be going to my Grandma's house after and all.
*Sigh.* So I have mixed feelings about the whole thing.
But anyhow; my Dad had to do some work thing "where we used to live",
and so my older sister, Bebis, went also. She had a lot of fun.
She bought that Top Hat she wanted, and played board games,
went places, ate at places, watched King Kong and other movies.
Yup! I better get to go next time. Hah. . . xD

Other then that; I finally wrapped that present for her.
She knows what it is, but that doesn't change how much she wants it.
Well, she rented a game on Gamefly.com, and liked it so much that --
she told me to buy it for her. So I did. The game-box-holder thing -
came in the mail, so I took her game, put it in the box, and wrapped it.
So now she has to wait until Christmas to have it back. Yup...
Now; I don't know what she got me.
I have a guess, but she keeps on confusing me.
I wanted to know really bad, because I just found it annoying for some reason.
A voice in my head that kept saying, "What is it?! What is it?!" repeatedly.
But the voice has been fading so I'm starting not to care so much.
Also, Bebis won't tell me what it is because she wants to see my face,
when I open it. She would have gotten an even more expressive face --
if she hadn't told me she put it in a box, in a box, in a box. Hah. xP
"You're not suppose to tell that!"

Anyhow, things are doing alright. Strange moods going around.
-Beck

First Place

The Awana Group, my sister, and I went bowling yesterday.
It was alot of fun. At first I really stunk at it.
But a short while after I got the hang of it.
With bumpers, It ended with three strikes in a row,
and the score of 140.I beat everyone. It was pretty cool.
After that we went to McDonalds, and then drove back home.
While that drive we began to talk about Harry Potter, and whatnot.
I said what I said but Teddy disagreed.
I have my opinion, he has his.
That isn't going to change, so stop freakin' yelling!
He obviously likes to argue.

Other then that -- The fake christmas tree is up. It looks nice.
We also have christmas lights on the stairs and outside.
Looks nice. >_O Yup, looks nice. xD

-Beck

The Magician's Nephew

Coughing and sneezing, that is what I have been doing.
I prefer sneezing over coughing though.

Yesterday I felt like reading, so I decided to read the Narnia Books.
We have the first two. I couldn't really figure out which to read first.
See -- When they were written, 'The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardobe'
came out first. As you read it there are some things that are supposed to be kept a mystery. Things you didn't know about. But now they put them in chronological order. So if you read the 'The Magician's Nephew' and then, 'The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe' then you would know and understand some things that you wouldn't then you would if you read them in the order they came out. So anyway, I'm only on chapter four of 'The Magician's Nephew' so far. I really like it.

Other then that, yesterday my Mom brought home some pizza. It was really good, and I have missed it a lot-- since my older sister can't have it because it has cheese.
Next month the Awana group is going bowling. I don't remember when, or even if that was decided. Also we are going to some homeschool group thingy, next month also. Food and crafts and such.
And yeah. . . Not much else.

-Beck

Too Much Ham

So we got some honey roasted ham today. Best ham I have ever had. I see why it cost $40, but still-- $40?! It was good though.
I probably won't eat ham for another year or two. xD
I'll be sick of it for a while, until I get brave enough to eat it again.

On Sunday after church they had a Thanksgiving dinner thing, so I stayed and helped out.
I was there from 10am to 7pm. Heh! Had fun though.
Cut potatoes, made a new donation box, lit candles, laughed, played with spray paint, looked at pictures, ate a chocolate muffin, a bunch of stuff!
I was the only teenager there.
The ladies there kept on saying how happy they are that I am homeschooled,
and how horrible the school here is, and such. Must agree. Other then that, not much. Or so that I remember.

Joe is "fickle" as my mom says. He hit me with his hat,
I just kept walking, ignoring him, and he said, "Fine, be that way."
as I still, kept walking, ignoring him. Har.
It's weird how girls just wait for him to tell them to do something.
How to act, I guess. He's not all that great. xD xP

Arg. Not much else. A bit sick, have not been feeling so great lately.
--Oh, and I want a violin for Christmas!

-Beck

I'm Sorry to Say

I suspect I should write something.
At the moment I am quite happy,
because I have figured out what Joe is.
He's a rude, immature jerk. To this, I feel bad at saying--
but that is what I see now.

I stayed after church with my little siblings
for some musical pratice thing.
After a little while of being there,
my stomach and chest began to hurt,
and I could hardly breath. I felt like I was burning, or something.
I couldn't even eat, and I was very jittery.
I went outside for a bit,to get some air, and I felt better.

Anyway, Joe, and I guess his girlfriend, or something, were there.
Joe pretty much ignored me, [Yay!].
Later on, when I was outside,
Joe and two other girls were out there too.
Joe said some idiotic, immature, and perverted remarks.
Which is why now I pretty much label him a jerk.
I feel pretty good now, for the fact I know how Joe is,
and don't have to waste time being confused. xP
Oh, and by the way, he smokes. *Cough, cough. Tries to breath.*
It seems a lot of teens around here smoke. Pretty dumb really.

Anyhow-- I am great! =D
I have space in my head, and I'm hungry.

-Beck

Halloween, --Already?!

Wow, it's 'almost' Halloween. This month sure seems to be flying by fast!
-I honestly don't like Halloween all that much.
All the creepy costumes, and such.
There is this one cute store in town that has a lot of neat stuff--
but they have super scary Halloween costumes. Anyway...
Today is Sunday, which means church. Nothing much, really.
Um-- Joe was there. xP
He told me that for his birthday he's going to go be a marine.
It's his birthday present I guess. xD
His birthday is near the end of this year, and he'll be turning 17.
He is very excited, because he gets to play with his toys;
gun and bombs. Ha.
He assures me that he'll be keeping his head down and shooting backs.
Common sense; shooting fronts would simply give the enemy time to notice and shoot back, and whatnot. Yes, my common sense. So-- yeah, he is very excited.

Other news-
We have two more kitties added to our kitty family.
One girl, one boy.
The girl is white, with a bit of gray. Beautiful dark blue eyes,
which look quite sad looking. Her name is Biscuit.
She prefers to sleep in the kitty litter box, and not to be very active.
The boy one is a bold striped tabby, with darkish yellowish eyes.
He is very active, and likes to be held. He seems to be looking for someone though, like when he'll run around the house, because someone let him loose, he'll go around meowing everywhere at the walls and such. His name is Toast.
So now we have, Muffin, Farly, Crumpet, Biscuit and Toast. Yummy!

-Beck

Days Before

Not much has happen, I guess... Let me remember.

My grandma from Holland, has flew back home, from visiting us.
Um, yesterday Joe talked to me,
but this time only hit me once! Heh, yay!
He asked how I was doing, and if I played Halo 2 recently,
I told him I don't have an Xbox [How many times do I have to tell him!?] and that I have to wait for my cousin to come, with his Xbox and Halo2. And... Oh, Joe said I've grown taller.
I was like, "I have...?" I don't pay much attention to my height very often, --but after Joe said that, I noticed I could see people better. xD
Lets see, what else-- oh, had to sit through church, listening to a guy sing christian country music. I'm not much of a fan of country music. X_x'
No matter who sings it, and how, I just don't like it. But I lived. =D

*Sigh.* Don't know what else.
My sister and I, go to a think at church, called "Awanas".
It's pretty fun, because there isn't a lot of people, so we sit there,
discussing the topic, talking, laughing, eating junk food, and play a fun game with the time we have left. xD Like-- four square. >_x It's fun. I never played it before.
Lets see, who goes to Awanas-
There is this girl named Kayla, who is in middle school. And she has a friend named Heather, who I think is also in middle school. And then there is Kayla's cousins, Tessa and Teddy, I believe they are in highschool, freshmen.
Same as I. They are pretty cool. We have lots of fun! And-- There are two teachers. =3
I just wish the days would pass by faster.

-Beck

I Left Something Out

I don't know how I forgot,
but there was a bit more to the end of my last entry.
Before Joe left, he asked me for a hug.
I said "No.", for the fact I don't trust him, all that much.
Sense he enjoys punching, slapping, and messing up hair.
I took a step back, and he took a step forward, and as he did,
he freakin hugged me!
And, as I was afraid he'd do, he messed up my hair.
Then he said, "See you next Sunday!" and left. xP
Arg...

-Beck

Keeping Up

I guess I'm not doing so great on making a new entire in my blog, as often as I can. I guess I've just been forgetting. Just slips right out of the things I plan on doing. But anyway, I am here, and I am making an entrie.

So, lets see...
I left the public highschool, by the way. Back to homeschooling, so much better.
I found out other people around think the school is also bad and whatnot. At least they know, hm? Sooner or later the school will finally get it, but then again-- maybe not. What else, oh, my grandma from Holland is over here staying for a while. Aside from that, we are now members of a church. Became members of it last week. They also had a lunch and games thing after church. Someone around my age actually talked to me! His names Joe, I can't remember how old he is-- umm... 16-17 years old. He flatters himself and insults others. Called me ugly and fat. I suspect he had said that for the fact its obvious I neither, or just being very mean.
He also punches and slaps me. Which is kind of annoying. Punches me in the arm, slaps me in the face. And calls me slow, because I'd miss when I hit him back. Maybe I ment to miss, huh!? Maybe I don't like to hurt people. xD
Anyhow, I did hurt him though! I caught his arm and kind of dug my nails in a bit. Didn't have much of nails anyway, so I suppose it didn't hurt to bad. He said, "Ow..." and rubbed his arm. Heh. Also likes to mess up my hair. That's also very annoying. Anyway, he said, "See you next Sunday!" So-- I hope we go next Sunday. Don't want to disappoint him. xD

Anyway...
I don't remember anything else that had happen.
-Beck

First Day of High School

I left with one feeling, and came back with another.

My sister and I left very early in the morning, while the sun was coming up, to wait for the bus to school. Quite excited I was, as well as nervous. But later on in the day, when it felt like it had been a week since I arrived there, I wasn't all that excited anymore. I noticed that it was all so quick. I didn't know what books to bring to which classes, and we are not allowed to take our book bag inside the class. You would have to put the bag into the locker and take which book you'd need. Since I didn't know, I carried stuff to classes that I didn't use, because, I guess I didn't need them. And when I decided not to carry books and such to the class since it seemed I wouldn't need them, I did need them. I didn't understand a lot of the things, because they just didn't explain it well.

Aside from all that, they were all so fast. You weren't allowed to use the restroom while everyone was in their classes. Once the bell rang, you could-- but as soon as you get there, it rings again, idicating that it is time to go to the next class. And as forgetful as I am, I couldn't get my locker open fast enough either. I felt like I was bound to explode. I even missed lunch, because I was busy with the locker and I was lost as well.

The school has great teachers, but it doesn't have a good system. Their obvious motto seems to be, "We treat you like an adult" because they say it so often. I really dislike this though, I don't really want to be treated like an adult! People often say that they wish they were in their teenage years. And to enjoy being a kid while you still can. But pushing this, "getting you ready for college"' just doesn't seem right. My mom says college is way more relaxed, that it's like a vacation compared to high school.

The school has too many rules, and if you break one you get detention. It's all so-- fast and crowded. Too quick for my own mind. I really don't look forward to going tomorrow, or ever again, really. I'd rather be around my annoying little sisters, reading my sister's big math book(I hate math), and do that homeschool thing on the computer everyday, then go back to that high school.

At the high school I met this girl, I don't know her name or anything, but she was homeschooled too. She said she was crying a lot of the time, because of how the school was. You get detention for almost everything. And a lot of the important reasons I have forgotten. Which means I'm supposed to do something or I'll get detention-- but I forgot what I was supposed to do!

Just writing about the school upsets me. It is a big step if you didn't go to the town's elementary and middle school before going to the town's high school.

*Sigh.*

-Beck

"In God we Trust"

Again, I couldn't think of a name to call the title, then I noticed a nickel next to the keyboard, so yeah.

Anyway, we went to the school's open house today. Met the teachers and such. It seems cool. Had to get our pictures taken for our school ID. Oh-- and I got the first locker on the left, down stairs. xD So that's easy to remember. =D Still will get lost and stuff, of course. Because of all the forgetting. But I'll write things down and such. I think I should start writing on my arm or something. xD That way I'll remember easier. =[]

After that we went to Arbys. It wasn't all that great because I got food stuck in my throat or whatever, between my nose and mouth. I hate it when that happens, but it seems to be better now. xD Pretty dumb, huh? One time I was eating nerds upside down on my sister's other bed, at our old house. And a nerd got stuck. It felt like it was in my nose. xP It never came out, but it felt better after a long while. It was just sugar and such, so-- it probably just melted or something. xD So yeah! That was stupid, too. Oh, that reminds me that sometimes when I'm eating or drinking, liquid stuff comes out of my ear. =O Weird. xP

Anyway! --One thing I think is pretty cool about school is that I get to read whatever book I want in one of the classes. ^^ So I can take one of my Charlie Bone books! Oh-- and in a message board I go to now and then, a person who e-mailed the writer said that she, Jenny Nimmo, is going to post there if she can find the site. Isn't that cool? She e-mailed the person telling him that she is going to write 5 more Children of the Red King(Charlie Bone) books. The next one we thought would be the last, but I guess she decided to keep going. ^^ So-- she is going to write 3 more of the books, and then one about the ten children of the Red King, and the a book about Uncle Paton's childhood. Yay! Paton is one of my favorite characters.

-Beck

What Should Be The Title?

I had no idea what to title this entry. So-- that's what I ended up with. Sadly.

Anyway, I see that I haven't posted any new entries lately. It's been like, two weeks or over? I thought I should probably keep this updated and such.
So-- lets see, what's new... Um... Well... Ach.
I can't remember what happened lately, if any thing at all.
Oh! Last month one of my aunts sent an e-mail gift thingy, for me to spend 40$ on amazon. With it I got a Kirby game for my gameboy advance SP and a butterfly bracelet that is in autumn/earth colors, which I really like. And I also got a pearl bracelet. Yeah. So that's cool. That's all I can think of...

Though, yesterday I counted all the money I have, and I found out I have $165. =O I have no idea what to buy with it. xD That's probably why I have it all saved up.

Anyway-- I'll try to put another entry in when something interesting happens.
-Beck

What to Say, What to Say

Where to start, not saying that there is a lot to be said.
-- It is still hot, and soon to be getting even hotter. But surprisingly it didn't seem to feel so hot today to me, though later in the day it had gotten hotter, feeling like every other day so far. But-- it did feel somewhat different for a while!
We finally got my dad's car! It guess it was supposed to be here a lot sooner, but it wasn't. It had been like a few weeks over its suspected due date or so. It looks like it used to, no dents or bumps that I have noticed. Just a tad dirty, but that doesn't matter a bit, such a little thing. It was expected. Rain could just fix that up.
Anyway, no more rental cars! For a long while I guess. I dislike making promises, false hope, even when it doesn't matter because it goes un-noticed. But then again, I notice. Plus I don't like to say stuff I'm not quite sure of.

Also, Ginger, my dog hasn't been such a nice dog lately in my opinion. Really, it would be called "Being a Dog", but I tend to not like what dogs are being. Ginger always finds turtles around here, she loves them. I'd be sitting down on the couch downstairs, then I'd see in the corner of my eye, a thing running past the door, with something rather large being held in a very small mouth. It's quite funny really, how she, Ginger, gets that thing to fit in her mouth. But sadly, the other day, Ginger was out in the front, with, of course, a turtle. I went to go look at the turtle that Ginger had found, I looked over to it, and I noticed that Ginger has managed to bite on the side at the bottom, and blood was -- well, I can't seem to find any words to go on. But, you probably understand what Ginger had done, or at least part. Surprisingly, the turtle was still alive. My older sister found something to put it in, and took it all the way out to the gate while Ginger stayed behind. Now, that is what I meant by, "Being a Dog", and my opinion of being a "Bad Dog". But what we all thought was quite funny, is the matter that Turtles are the only thing that Ginger manages to catch. So slow.
While my dad was cutting the grass, Ginger walked by him with a turtle, my dad followed Ginger, as Ginger stopped and began to dig near a tree placing the turtle into the whole. I find that rather depressing, to think of a bunch of turtles out there buried alive. Ach. Anyway! The kittens are growing, though, today my sister has noticed The Muffin, her favorite cat, seemed to have a bigger and rounder tummy then usual. We worry that Hannah, earlier today, had squeezed her too tight. I hope she is okay.

Other then that I can't find anything else new that happened recently. That I had remembered. I did get new shoes though! My other ones, were falling apart. So, I got some All Stars. Out of all the colors they had to pick from, at the store. Like red, gray, blue and pink, I picked brown. It matches my outfits though! My sister and my mom said it was me. xD My older sister, got some very colorful shoes, with bright green shoe laces. I'm not sure what color the shoe is its self, I can't remember the name. But it's a purple-ish red-ish pink-ish color. It goes with her shocks very well. Black and white strips, red and black, and purple and black. Really cool socks.

Well, I'm going to go watch Monk now! One of my favorite shows.

-Beck

Thunder and Rain

I love the weather here- not the heat but the rain, thunder, and lightning.
Back where I use to live, you didn't really see "The real thing" I guess you could say.
The rain would come for about half of the day then leave, and it wouldn't come back for a long while. Here the rain is off and on. You'd think it's over, but half an hour later, its back and it acts like it's not leaving. I love it. I love rain.
The thunder back where I use to live was so-- "Aw! I didn't hear it..." But here, it's like "who didn't hear it!?". And the lightning, I hardly saw a thing of it back where I lived. And here, it lights up you're backyard as if it was day, yet it is really night.
And what I love the most-- is when you're outside, and you really quick hear this loud thunder, then you hear the sound of rain dropping down on the leaves in the wood coming closer and closer, louder and louder. Big rain drops fall on the deck. And just a few seconds before- it was dry like summer, now it's soaked like it's been raining forever. It gives you this great felling of excitement.
And it gives you so much imagination. Reading books, back where I use to live, it was pretty cool with the effect of imagination, you wouldn't think it gets any better, but then when you move and see the real thing, the real thunder told in the story, and you imagine it all-- it's just so-- "Wow." in shock.
Not to long ago, I was standing out side, on the porch, watching the rain and the flashes of light, and listening to the thunder rolling. You just couldn't be driven away from the beautiful of nature.
I love it here. It's so-- neat and interesting.

(Ps. If you are reading, "Hi grandma! I miss you.")

-Beck

Happy Birthday Me

Today is my birthday.
Doesn't really seem to matter much, because--
I look forward to my birthdays to have fun with my cousins, aunts, uncles, grandma and grandpa, but sense I have moved, they aren't here. So, that kinda depresses me.

Yesterday we went over to a "big city place", to a mall, and there my mom and dad bought my birthday present. I couldn't really think of anything I wanted, and a few days ago I was trying to get my room organized, then I noticed-- I don't have enough space in my little "jewelry box"(Usually would not be used as a jewelry box. But I use it as one.), so I decided I needed a real jewelry box, so I asked for one for my birthday. It's a really nice one, it's a tstand up one and it open like a little closet with two draws at the bottom. And it has that look that I'd like in my room, so if I were to have a room like how I am wanting, the jewelry box will match. It is really pretty. ^^

-Beck